I’m very excited to announce that The Pagan Federation Anthology of Pagan Poetry (Volume 1) has been published and is available to buy on Amazon.
I have two poems in the anthology, plus there’s poetry from Dan Coultas (who brought the anthology together), Eleanor Rose, Krystal Holmes, Jenny Luddington, and The Bee- plus loads more amazing pagan poets.
All proceeds from the book go to fund the Pagan Federation, the organisation supporting the rights of Pagans right across the U.K.
…But some of these fruits and vegetables
Are still good
A little soft
A little wobbly
A little less sweet
Just add some sugar
And soak it in
Let the sharp bubbles
Read the rest on my Patreon, available for all paying tiers from £1/$1 a month.
…I tip my head and a golden god
Pours amber over my face and neck
Apple-light and pebble smooth
Like the stones beneath my feet…
A snippet of a poem written for an upcoming project, I can’t say much right now but it’s very exciting!
Your husband can’t get out of the house because things keep randomly falling over, mostly on him.
Stuff keeps disappearing and then turning up in odd places.
You go into a room and something scuttles away into the corners, My Neighbor Totoro style.
You mournfully wish our loud that your lost slipper would appear and it does, where you already checked, several times.
The volume on the telly seemed to shoot up for no apparent reason.
The spirit world is supposedly closer at this time of year- we’re certainly feeling it today!
Enjoy today, however you’re celebrating.
Stepping back into my kitchen
Which smells of
A potato heavy
That does surprisingly little
To soak up
Two shots of whiskey
And a glass of homemade
Step out again,
Wobble around the house
Check for the moon
Check for the fox
What does it say
Only the shrill wheeze
Of my own breath.
Trigger warning: suicide.
It’s World Mental Health Day 2019. The focus this year is preventing suicide, and the scary fact is that someone loses their life to suicide approximately every 40 seconds.
The campaign encourages everyone to take 40 seconds of their time, to raise awareness, speak to a loved one who might be struggling, or to speak to someone yourself if you’re the one that’s struggling.
This last point is one I find challenging. I’ve often had my mental health conditions belittled and mocked, by employers and medical professionals, but also by friends and family.
The way I explain it to my nine-year-old is, “You wouldn’t see someone with a leg in a plaster cast and go kick them, would you? So with someone with mental health issues, you have to listen and pay attention to their needs.”
My concern has always been that my needs weren’t as important as the needs of others. There are reasons for this low self-worth, and I’ve recently hashed it out with an incredible and patient therapist. I’m now starting to put my own needs first. It’s difficult, especially when those who have always been able to “rely on you” suddenly find you saying “No” or not being available.
Here are a few ways I’ve changed how I deal with my mental health:
I’m definitely not anywhere close to recovery. I still struggle with many of these points, and am considering discussing with my GP going back onto anti-depressants for a while, as things have been tough recently.
The main thing I struggle with is how well I “mask” my problems. I am excellent at putting a brave face on and just getting on with stuff. It’s worth remembering that many people you know might also do this. Just because someone seems fine, it doesn’t mean they are. A quick message or call can make the difference between someone feeling entirely alone and knowing someone cares.
Losing someone to suicide is shattering. It can come out of the blue, or it can feel like something that’s been looming for years. If you know someone has had suicidal thoughts, no matter how flippantly they may have mentioned it, check in with them. The Black Dog Institute has advice on looking out for warning signs of suicidal tendencies here.
And if you’re the one struggling, don’t let your mental health problems trick you into believing no one cares. You absolutely matter, and the world is a better place for having you in it.
There’s always someone to talk to at The Samaritans too.