A Modern Celt: It’s Here!

My book, A Modern Celt is officially released today! It’s available all over the place, and here’s the link to Amazon where you can have a peek inside and see what all the fuss is about.

Remember, from 20.00 tonight I will be online and all yours. Anything you want to ask me, tag your post #amoderncelt and I will find you. You can also come to my Facebook page and leave posts, photos, whatever you like. I’m also on Twitter, WordPress and Pinterest. The more the merrier!

Currently working on a poem about luminosity; how do simple actions in day to day life literally brighten our day? What is it about gentle words and kind thoughts that work a magic strong enough to change our entire outlook on life? Thoughts please!

A Modern Celt: Book Launch! Online so you don’t have to leave the house…

A Modern Celt: Book Launch! Online so you don't have to leave the house...

Please join me for an online discussion/debate/ramble in celebration of my first book being published. The book covers the influence of Celts on modern society through Pagan and non Pagan eyes, and through experiences both spiritual and mundane. I’d like people to get involved this Friday night by asking me questions, putting tasks to me, asking me to write for them or to research something; my pen is in your hands! Message me here by leaving a comment, or on twitter @Mabherick or at http://mabhsavage.tumblr.com or on my facebook page which you can find via the event link (click on the photo). 8pm, Friday 27th September 2013. Grab a glass and get typing!

Rising in the Fall…

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Taken while on Equinox Camp with amazing friends. The sun shone hot and I had to steal an Americanism for my title, simply because of how high I felt; how drunk on happiness and calm and balmy contentment; how warm and exquisite and worldly. We ate well; we talked; we foraged. And in the absence of formal ritual I used acorns, beech nuts and feathers to build a makeshift altar (on top of my car) simply to celebrate the unique balance; the joyous pause; the twilight of the year.

Future Learn

This is the best idea I have seen for a long time. Courses designed and run by universities, which are totally free. Learning from the top minds in the country and no course fees, no attendance; simply log in on your pc, phone or tablet. Join discussions. Debate. Enjoy! This is what learning should be like in a modern age; in a time when we all have to work or parent or do things that don’t allow for a fine routine for anything else in our lives.

I have just signed up for forensic sciences, java programming, natural resources and the Higgs Bosun particle physics course. The max time that this will take up a week is 5 hours; I can do this on my lunch breaks! I am so excited.

This is a totally new project so I’ll keep you all updated on the course content and if the structure actually works; currently my excitement is outweighing any cynicism, but my mind is open!

Watch this space…

Broken Blue

Mornings like this are the epitome of autumn for me. A magical mix that should be distressing but in its balance becomes quite beautiful. Sunshine beaming in the blue beneath heavy lids of looming cloud; birds soaring gleefully then buffeted by the random raucous winds that scuffle across the sky; almost frost that dots the bins and cars but doesn’t yet bother the tomatoes fattening hungrily under the last of Helios’ touch; early mornings in the light and the cool, a memory of summer and a warning of winter. Have a beautiful autumn day, and find balance in the things you put into it.

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Random acts of kindness

I’m a bit blue and fed up so thought I would list some of the nice things that have happened in the last few weeks:

1/ Owner of San Co Co Cafe in Leeds gave Nathan some chocolate brownie.

2/ Lots of people wishing me well when my back has been hurty.

3/ Random mention in Asian Echo regarding Chapel Allerton Library Open Mic night.

4/ Storm Trooper shaking hands with Nathan.

5/ Asked to bring my guitar to camp (yeah, my ego is that fragile and needy).

6/ Asda sent me free samples.

7/ A spaghetti squash arrived in my weekly veg box. Spaghetti squash! No idea what to do with it.

8/ Nana looked after Nathan for two nights while we were just too ill.

9/ Discovered that spinach stirred into instant noodles is yum.

10/ Nathan said he’s proud of me for reverse parking into a marked bay.

See, that right cheered me up! What nice things have happened to you?

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Early autumn sunset outside my house.

Eating up the Equinox

I feel like this year’s autumnal equinox has crept up on me. I’ve been a bit poorly, and off work, and struggling to write, and suddenly I realise, wow, it’s nearly balance point again. Nearly that magical time when day equals night; light equals dark and nothing holds sway over anything else. And that’s ok. It’s ok to stop vying for power. It’s ok to not win. It’s ok to not care about losing. Sometimes just existing and enjoying that can be satisfying. Not everything has to be a competition. It’s such a cliche to say stop and smell the (insert appropriate olfactory affecter here), but in autumn, it’s so true. There is so much to smell and taste and dive both hands into.

I wrote last year about preparation for the darker months, and gathering our resources; both internal and external. But I think it’s also important to enjoy this moment of what can be immense peace. Eat it up; like the fat blackberries still tempting bees and the tomatoes still tangling in the first of the autumn winds. Breathe it in, like the last of the blossom blowing around the eaves; the damp earth morphing from creatrix to storage cellar; the tang of dust from building projects rushed to be completed before winter sets in. Gather it close, like potatoes piled in the corner; washing wet and hopeful for a few more days sunshine; shoes collecting dust as boots suddenly become favoured. Taste it; touch it; eat up this moment of balance: look forward to it and enjoy it. This is more than a transition. This is no aperitif. This is a feast; so gorge, rest and feel it fill you up.

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Hiding from the Hyenas

Hiding from the Hyenas
Some people describe depression as a black dog. Having only ever seen black dogs as symbols of love, friendship and spirituality, I’ve never identified with this metaphor.
For me, depression is a hyena. Hear it laugh. And scrounge. And prowl.
Like the scavenger in the wild, it leaps on things already wounded; self esteem; self worth; self image; focus; memory; relationships.
Its jaws close around the throat of thrashing emotions and it stares into my eyes, wondering if I am the predator, ready to fight for my sustenance, or am I too weak?
Different days bring varying results. Sometimes I can laugh louder than the hyena, my giggles not only hiding but dissipating the beast to a blur of barely there.
Somedays it’s a stale mate, and these days are long and hard, but at least as my head hits the pillow, I don’t feel that I have submitted to the scrounging creature.
I think, as time has passed, the hyena has learned that I can be resilient. And as all animals do, it has reacted by adapting.
Now it calls its friends.
My back is up against a tree. I’m gasping for air but how can air fill this hollow shell? All of me is on the dusty ground, being torn by teeth yellow and grim and dirty. How did they all get in here? Did I let them in? Is this my fault?
Panic and twitch and hide. Try and call for help. Laughter on all sides. Laughter from without: ‘oh you’re just sad’. Laughter from within at the lack of empathy; did I expect more? Am I really that stupid? In this urban jungle, we have forgotten how to throw down the vines and lift our wounded into the trees.
I wish I had something to throw to these hyenas. Something to distract them. But solutions elude me, so I hide. Hiding in shadow; hiding in bright light. Hiding in the mundane; in routine; in keeping it together: in breaking.

Poetry tonight in Leeds

Quick reminder: Chapel Allerton Arts Festival poetry Open Mic at Chapel Allerton Library. From 7 ’til 10 ish. 🙂 Expect to see lots of talent on show, or maybe have a go yourself!

http://www.leeds.gov.uk/Events/Pages/open-mic-poetry-night-chapel-allerton-festival.aspx

See you there!