Tag: Depression

NaPoWriMo Day 21: Lockdown Blues

It almost seems Pathetic To complain When we have a roof A house Money coming in- less, mind So much less And no help from on high Thanks to creeping criteria And tape not so much red As blue-blood coloured Fuck the Tories Fuck…

NaPoWriMo Day Ten: Numb

I describe myself as numb To others Because it’s easier Than describing The inexplicable drama Banality Humdrum hurricane Of feelings fraught with April frost Invisible beasts Cold sunshine Bubble-less yeasts Tasteless sweets Coffee that just makes you Sleepy A hiccup of anxiety Expelled like…

NaPoWriMo Day 1: The Fallen

I cried last night I guess I already told you But it’s rare for me Despite chronic depression A range of anxieties Suspected other conditions Where diagnosis only failed through Lack of time and effort So I feel sad, a lot But I rarely…

World Mental Health Day

Trigger warning: suicide. It’s World Mental Health Day 2019. The focus this year is preventing suicide, and the scary fact is that someone loses their life to suicide approximately every 40 seconds. The campaign encourages everyone to take 40 seconds of their time, to…

Autumn Equinox and the GLAD Study

The autumn equinox is a time for pause and reflection. It’s that moment of balance; darkness is about to take over, and before too long, the nights will noticeably outweigh the days. It’s a time to take stock, just as traditionally, the equinox would…

Intermittent Cloud, Some Showers

I need to take inspiration From the one year old She is a joy storm Crashing delight Like waves against My sinking ship Lightning smiles Hurricane howling laughter My stress My tears My depression Feel worthless In the sight Of her happiness I want…

Back to School

I’ve spent the summer holidays in a bit of a daze. We had an amazing honeymoon in Rhodes, and, quite frankly, didn’t really want to come back. The sting of returning to a seemingly increasingly miserable country was somewhat assuaged by getting to spend…

Friday Feeling

Things that made me happy this week so far (my attempt at telling depression to bugger right off). CHaOS science day at Oakwell Hall. Lots of experiments for the kids to try out. Baby ran amok across the grounds and we saw newts, rats,…

NaPoWriMo Day Four: Grey Sky Mood

When the sky is grey Like fluffy grease From the bottom Of a chef’s shoe Like a smear of ash From a dead campfire Like pencil shading Abruptly halted By the snapping of lead. When the sky is grey And looms above my garden…

Big Deal

Just because something isn’t a big deal to you, doesn’t mean it isn’t a big deal to someone else. If someone tells you something is bothering them, listen. It’s completely okay to not understand. It’s not okay to belittle their emotions. If someone snaps,…